apples and onions, indeed.

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

...

My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open...

-- from Leona Lewis' "Bleeding Love"

a special and very amused thank-you shout to tess for sending me this song - it couldn't have come at a better time... :oP - and you're totally right. this sooo would have been my mmc solo LOL!

sweet november. i am happy - how long this will last, i have absolutely no idea; but the fact that this feeling is very much evident in my life right now has given me hope for new beginnings and perhaps just a whole different perspective on love and life. it's rather exhilarating, really - and according to my friends who know me well enough to notice, for the past couple of weeks i've been walking around with a little more pep in my step, appearing to be radiantly glowing of joyful brilliance.

... sometimes all a girl really wants to know is that she's worth it: worth the risk, worth the fight, worth the pursuit, worth believing in, worth the wait; and of course, worth being accepted and appreciated for being exactly who she is, "wobbly bits" and all - no more, no less.

surprisingly in my 26 years of being on this earth, i never really had a genuine opportunity to experience that - until tonight. and though a huge part of me is ridiculously terrified to once again find myself shaking hands with vulnerability, an even bigger part of me is quite excited to watch yet another life-chapter unfold before my very eyes...